Your name does rhyme with it

So...this video has been a part of my daily life since I found it like errrr 2 months back? and the very reason why I love this song is because this song somehow reminds me of you. And  my favourite singer sang it, with one of my favourite drummer and guitarist although the three are not even in same band. So, listening to this always give me that goosebumps.

The original lyrics goes like this:


Hey,Sephia (Hey Sephia)
Malam ini ku takkan datang (Tonight I won't come over)
Mencoba 'tuk berpaling sayang (Trying to hold back my heart)
Dari cintamu (From Your love)
Hey,Sephia (Hey Sephia)
Malam ini ku takkan pulang (Tonight I won't come home)
Tak usah kau mencari aku,demi cintamu (Don't try to find me for your love)

Hadapilah ini (Try to face it)
Kisah kita takkan abadi (Our story won't last forever)

S'lamat tidur kekasih gelap ku[ooo.....Sephia] (Goodnight my secret love)
S'moga cepat kau lupakan aku (Hope you forget me soon)
Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu (Your true lover will never be able to forget you)

S'lamat tinggal kasih tak terungkap [ooo.....Sephia] (Goodbye my unspoken love)
S'moga kau lupakan aku cepat (Hope you forget me soon)
Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk meninggalkanmu (Your true love will never be able to leave you)

Hey,Sephia (Hey Sephia)
Jangan pernah panggil namaku (Don't ever try to call my name)
Bila kita bertemu lagi (When we meet again)
Di lain hari (At another day)

Hadapilah ini (Just try to face this)
Kisah kita takkan abadi (Our story won't last forever)

This song reminds me that you have taught me a lot whether you realize or not. You directly or indirectly become the benchmark on how I see every girls whom I see since then. I know where you are right now, but sadly I don't even know how are you :/ I just hope that sometimes in the future we will cross path again and again sorry for hurting you back then without much thought put. I still remember you crying when you called me 5 years back btw =( But really a big big thank you for setting a high standard for my love life hahahaha.
God bless yeap =)


-Dei- 

Apple of my eye

This is just a mere description of how I feel. Nothing is implied nor suggested.

.......

Do you know how I feel? I don't think so!and I hope not!hahaha

I'm writing this because I have had enough keeping this to myself. So yeah. Last year was the first time I had these butterflies in my stomach everytime I see you. No it's not that kind of love feeling. Ok maybe I like you as a friend and yeah I'm still trying to figure out what it is until now. hahaha.

It started in January, I enjoyed talking to you and seeing you around. Looking back at the memories, I wonder how quite a number of time we were getting closer doing things together. BUT don't get me wrong. I'm not being big-headed, thinking that you like me or something! No No No. BIG NO

Honestly speaking I love having you as a friend. Talking to you is always fun and retarded. Maybe it's because of your easy-going nature I guess. It's just something that I don't always have in myself, so I kinda jealous you for that :/ And I love hearing your stories! How your parents are running their business!Your ex and other retarded stories! It just seems that your life is damn fun, unlike mine at least for the past 1 year or so.

Andddd I like your smile. It reflects pure happiness leh. Wahlao. -.- hahahaha. and I do hope that my decision not to take anything more than being friends was correct. Because I also do think that it will be weird and awkward if I did that in the first place. So I hope that I hid it well enough and I DO NOT want to know your feeling to me!

But really thanks for being a good friend, I really appreciate it. I hope I don't say anything that will affect our friendship :) God bless.


-Dei-

Hating this feeling

Lonely, exhausted, troubled, unhappy.

Those are maybe the very best words to describe me the past 3 weeks or so.

Have you ever been in a  situation where you really don't feel like going through tomorrow? Feel like your life is just a completely boring cycle where same things happen again and again every day?

Yeah, that's precisely how I have been feeling. Maybe I'm being quite a douche writing this but oh well as much as I hate having this feeling. I'm still looking for things that can really cheer me up. Yet, whatever things I post on this post are still true.

So...

Whenever I feel lonely, I realize that I will start cheering myself up. be it through music/soccer/sleep/study/ or just finding someone to share this retarded feeling. But honestly speaking, the last option seems to get harder and harder to find. I don't know whether it's just me or there have seriously been a huge gap between me and my friends.

TRUE FRIENDS WILL BE THERE FOR YOU, they said.

As much as I want to thank my friends; Kevin, Liuwie, Kenneth, Kai Shin, Johandy, Rainer, Pin Yaw, Jonta, Put, and the rest, who have been such a support for me to go through the day, I really still feel kinda empty inside. But really these guys have my sincere gratitude and I'm really thankful for them.

Maybe it's because of too much stress; I have no idea also. But yeah this is me, for the past 3 weeks or so. Hopefully it will be over soon.


-Dei-

An advice

This is just a small tips for those who are single and still looking for a correct one.

You might already know this but I just wanna share it anyway. For guys out there, if you meet a girl somewhere in your life, DON'T EVER BE FRIENDS WITH HER WITH AN INTENTION OF MAKING HER YOURS. It will never work!

It's just so sad that a lot of times a guy and a girl break up just a few weeks or months after they are together. I find that there is a high possibility that they both don't know each other at all and trying to smoke their way through together for a couple of weeks or so. It won't work!And let me tell you this. Your intention in knowing her must be to befriend her first. Because when you straight away chase her with a wrong intention, by the time you both are in a relationship, you will still don't know each other that well yet. And you will most probably end up arguing and fighting a lot. and it might end up tragically. So, try to know each other's strengths and weakness properly first and try your best to weigh your decision.

So, just think about this small piece of advice. Hope it helps.



-Dei-

A dedication of a brother

Thursday, 2 August 2012.

Yeah, the day when I finished most probably my last IOC in my life (hopefully). And it has come to my realization that my IB life almost come to an end. It only seems like yesterday that I kissed goodbye to my IOC in secondary 4, 2 years ago, with an extraordinary happiness realizing that I would only see it again in 2 years time.

Again, time flies, and since then I lost track of time, Year 5 went by so fast that I still remember clearly my first day as an IB student.  The fact that all these EE, TOK, IAs, World Lit, CCAs, and IOC has come to an end really really dazzled me. And among all these relieve and joy, above all, it is with my outmost gratitude that I wanna thank my brother for his dedication and patience in helping me.

This post does not aim to glorify his name or show how different we are, it is just a mere thankful feeling that I received, primarily through the IOC that I just finished.

1st of August, 10.30pm. We sat in the hall lounge as he offered me some tips in dealing with my IOC. That was the first time I attempted to verbalize my thoughts for my IOC. Yeah, the night before. And with all hesitation and worry, I tried. And after a gruelling 6mins, I stopped, yeah, 3 mins less than the minimum amount of time that I am supposed to speak. It just came into my mind, the fact that how troublesome I might have been in my study. That disappointed on my bro's face really troubled me. But despite all, it gave me motivation to study harder to prepare for IB which is around 90 more days. It just somehow gave me a boost in doing well for IB not for me but for my family, teachers, and friends, esp my bro.

SO yeah, thank you bro! (: Hopefully I can only miss your points by no more than 2. Pray for me yeah.


-Dei-